Dear Journal,

I know I didn't keep my word to write later on May 7th but think of the progress I got back like a day later instead of a year. Hmmmm...... Well to start off I am good. So far. I am here at my C.C. (community college) writing this. I saw two movies yesterday that I checked out of the library. The Aviator starring Leonardo Di Caprio, and Shattered Glass starring Hayden Christian. I like them, but I suggest to never try to go with back to back dramas. Blah T_T by the time I got finished with it. I was sick of it. blah. See this is what makes life funny, or to be more exact how people's actions are funny. People now a days are sick of the sappy happy endings. Personally I like them. Sure dramas are good with or without a happy ending, but that is how life is. I know we can't escape that reality, but why must we emerse areselves in it? I am not delusional enough to think that life has no happy endings what so ever but still just turn on the T.V to a news channel and there you have reality. I don't live a privilaged life, but I don't live in destitute one either. I love it actually. It makes you at least prepared for the reality of life. For example, when it's hot, people want the rain, when it rains people want the sun. Why? I don't know. I love all weather, sure I have moments when it is so hot I wish it rained but still I enjoy it. Besides I live in L.A. its not often I get to enjoy different types of weather. I know this is boring but I just thought it was funny how people are. I have my quirks as well but I try to think of ways to make it better. Sometimes it feels like the whole world rather your world is on your shoulders, and no one can help with the burden. I know that feeling all too well, but let me say this if at all this helps anyone out there. There is always something that will make us luckier than others, I don't know what that can be. Talent, class, money, etiquette, etc. I don't know but we must not be selfish to think that we are the only one to have problems. Well that is my journal for the hour. sorry if it was so winded, I just thought I get it out there. God Bless.

Sincerely
Zels